24 November 2012

tallinn dolls

a few weeks ago one of my favourite muses johanna asked if i was interested in shooting a fashion project for tallinn dolls
it was pretty fun and we had a really cool location in the old town, a gorgeous assistant with a shiny reflector and another friend who let us in. 
here are the final images, hope you like!

wardrobe by tallinn dolls // model is johanna ruukholm // assisted by jaan kristjan utno

18 November 2012


some weeks ago i met him for the first time and we spent a few hours shooting in his dark and cold attic. it was so strange, i had never really shot a boy before, it was different and challenging. but somehow he already knew what to do and i barely directed anything.

he's gone now, over the mountains and seas, more than eight thousand miles away. i hope you come back soon.

16 November 2012

the werewolf

styled by the amazing ketlin kütt
war paint by helen sarapik
models are xavier and maria

this is ketlin's coursework, inspired by a book with the same title.

behind the scenes

14 November 2012

let's eat cake

seoses igasuguste uute projektide ja ideedega otsin sellest sügisest inimesi, kellel on palju põnevaid riideid ning kes ei karda neid kombineerida - ehk siis, otsin noori stiliste ja disainereid! pakun omalt poolt väga nõudlikku ja kamandavat juhtimisstiili, vähe süüa ning sapiseid kommentaare, aga headel päevadel ka pilte ning väga lahedaid shoote. kui tunned, et just sinu riidekapp võiks kuulsaks saada, siis saada mõned näited oma kapis leiduvast ning võib-olla saab just sinust see, kes peab minuga hilja öösel üleval istuma ning kleitide üle arutama. päriselt.

ootan kirju aadressile siiri.kumari@gmail.com .

13 November 2012

werewolf: behind the scenes

a really cool stylist called ketlin who i met a few weeks ago asked me to shoot a small editorial for her coursework, and on monday we did. the location was quite creepy and we met some joyful locals with crowbars, but i'm sure they meant no harm. everyone, meet the ugly and somewhat undiscovered part of my city, a ghetto for the scum of society, abandoned and destroyed, but still somewhat beautiful.

a husky named xavier who didn't really feel like being photographed.

close-up of the makeup artist's work.

making firewood. yes.

12 November 2012

the girl i loved

you lost her almost exactly one year ago, in early november. autumn was dying fast that year. the trees in our courtyard were dark and bare, with branches like veins reaching up to the skies. it wasn't winter yet, more like a strange dusk between two seasons, a hazy and sleepless state of mind.

you were spending your 4 AM mornings in dirty diners and gas stations, wondering if all the night shift workers were the same with their bloodshot eyes and the constant stench of coffee and cigarettes lingering around them. maybe you were still partially looking for her and your hands were shaking of the cold but the memories of her had become the only thing keeping you awake during this grey dawn.

you kept filling your throat with cheap vodka, submerging in all of your darkest fantasies, smoking golden marlboros until your lungs became numb and your fingers no longer felt the cold. you were driving your car through the city lights, trying to run away from the only thing you really wanted, with hands trembling on the steering wheel, windows covered with frost and dirt. you wished the road could swallow you entirely, like a monster hiding inside your head, a certain darkness only the insane can see.

you want solitude, and yet you crave the company of a lover. you miss the mornings when you woke up to the heat of her freckled skin and you felt so complete; and you will never forget the nights she was sleeping next to you, breathing and alive.

you are lonely, and you miss the warmth only another human body can give. your skin is like glass, sharp and tender, and every single touch painfully fractures the wall you have built around yourself. however, your mind will always hunger for something more, just like your fingers will always long to touch the flesh of the thin asian girl standing next beside you by the traffic light. your imagination, ignited by the images of her; dark silky hair running over your spine, her skin burning yours, her thighs curved around your ribcage.

you make love to her four times in your head, hungry like a wolf, her blood like a crimson sea on the sheets.
"i love you, little bird," you whisper as you grab her hands, covered with bruises and scars. but she doesn't understand the loneliness that comes at night, the cravings of a quiet mind, she never will. and with her last breath echoing on your fingertips, you take her home and write three thousand paragraphs on her skin, six hundred lines in each.

11 November 2012

võida tasuta fotosessioon!

loosin kõigi oma eestlastest lugejate vahel välja tasuta fotosessiooni.
osalemiseks kirjuta kommentaaridesse oma nimi ja e-mail ning 11. detsembril loosin välja ühe õnneliku, kellega saab seejärel kokku lepitud mõlemale poolele sobiv pildistamise aeg ja koht.

auhind on mõeldud kasutamiseks kuni kahele inimesele.

üks fotosessioon kestab umbes kolm tundi, selle hulka kuulub riietumine ja soovi korral ka meik.
tulemuseks on tavaliselt 10-20 kergelt retušeeritud fotot.

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1 November 2012

free curves #11

click here to download the curve set
something i'm actually quite proud of, all three curves designed to work on various types of lighting. as always, i hope you enjoy and feel free to show me what you have done with them :]

how to use and ten more curve sets